Well, maybe you’re not, but I am.
And sometimes that’s the hard truth you have to come to in order to be productive and ultimately successful in the world you’re in. Get out of your head and stop being detrimental to your progress.
The Past Three Weeks
As you’ve seen, my last substantial post (or last post in general) was Valentine’s Day. I called myself taking a sabbatical, if you will, a hiatus. But the truth of the matter is…I was being lazy.
I know you aren’t going to fault me for not having some kind of post up each day as I had been doing, but if that’s what I was beginning to make you expect then I should have the decency to keep it up. The problem is I don’t like work. Tailor Made was starting to become work and needed a little more attention and elbow grease and effort on my part than I initially imagined it would.
Trust me, I tried to blame a lot of things and make a grip of excuses, but once I ran the gamut of excuses nothing really stuck besides the fact that I let my perfectionistic attitude yet again hinder me from completing or enduring a project.
Be Ye Perfect
The Bible admonishes the children of God to be perfect even as He is perfect, yet I don’t think He’s telling us to be as meticulous and neurotic as I am about things.
This is my mantra: if I can’t get something done the ideal way, the perfect way, then don’t even bother with it. Maybe that’s why it’s so easy for me to be single. Maybe that’s why I stress at work. Maybe that’s why I’ve had to battle, I have to battle depression because if I can’t meet my goal, as idealistic and great as it is, then I must be a loser! Now that’s some truth for you.
Don’t get me wrong. I’m far from OCD (some of my friends would disagree), and I’m not what you would call anal (dare you disagree?); I just like what I like how I like it.
Tailor Made’s A Joke
My plans for the blog were/are magnificent. I know exactly what kind of content that I want to provide to you, yet I won’t provide it totally because it requires a little research, a little digging, a little more construction, a little more prayer and I realize that I have to give it all I’ve got or nothing at all.
Who cares that I don’t have internet at home and work has gotten slightly busier (I’m cranking this out right before I go to lunch), and my car has broken down, and I left my phone charger in Nashville, and… how is that an excuse for not providing you with substantial content relevant to Tailor Made’s purpose. It isn’t. I’ve got to stop being lazily perfect, and just do it. Do the research. Write the post. Drive and/or walk and/or catch the bus to a wi-fi spot. Spend the night at a friend’s house, if need be.
And I will, because I think you’re worth it.
What’s the last “hard” conversation you had with yourself?